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Finding the thread

By Nichole Moorman

MON FEB 26, 2018

As is true for most of us, “awareness that arises from paying attention on purpose in the present moment, as non judgmentally as possible” (Jon Kabat-Zinn) was a part of my life before I knew the word “mindfulness”. This type of awareness showed up certain times when I was playing outside with friends, being creative, spending time in nature, reading a book, running, eating delicious foods, doing yoga, or even studying. It showed up when I was trying to understand my emotions, feeling deep sadness or anger, and when I was connecting with others or feeling the vulnerability of trying to connect with others. My awareness was in the present to some degree or another when I felt joy or contentment, and when emotions were so clear and raw that I had no other choice but to wake up to them.

Then I attended a free Dialectical Behavior Therapy training, and the trainer used the word mindfulness to describe a strange activity we did with a raisen (you will learn more if you take an MBSR course 😊I wasn’t sold, but I was intrigued.

Then I read “Full Catastrophe Living” by Jon Kabat Zinn, and the love affair began. I integrated what I was learning into my own teaching of DBT skills with good effect. I took an MBSR course. I learned it is possible to cultivate this capacity to be present, and harness its power to wake up to and with life. I learned that despite my generally “good life” and positive outlook, I wasn’t already, naturally awake and being myself most of time. So, I picked up the thread that had been stitched into my life at times of joy, peace, sorrow, and overwhelming anger, and I started sewing.